Ten Years In Meditation

I am writing this on the day of the first new moon of 2026, a potent new moon in Capricorn. I've been waking up feeling really grounded and light in the past 2 months, feeling like something inside me is stirring, as though my soul is preparing for something important to happen – what? I have no idea right now.

And this morning was no different; I woke up to breathe and meditate, and I was guided to center my meditation practice around the energy of the new moon: a time to plant new energetic seeds. Rather, getting my inner garden ready to once again receive the seeds I planted many moons ago. None of the qualities I want to invite into my life are new; they are qualities that I keep on cultivating and nurturing, day after day, year after year.

And here I am, a decade later. I thought that 2026 was my ninth anniversary; I was surprised to see that it has now been ten years since I began to meditate daily. There is something mystical and magical about it all. I cannot explain it; it just feels like divine timing, like things are falling into place even though my personal circumstances have not changed. The shift has happened internally.

Ten years ago, I sat in stillness to face my Self – I didn't know that at the time, not consciously at least. I sat in silence because there was no other place to go but within. And I kept coming back; I still come back after all those years because silence, stillness, and solitude have been the greatest teachers of all. I think of myself back then, at a crossroad, full of emotions and thoughts I struggled to understand because a part of me resisted them. Sitting in meditation again and again was an act of surrender, not in defeat. I surrendered like a peaceful warrior, to meet my deepest fears with kindness and compassion. And from that surrendering came understanding. In the last decade, I have sat with every single emotion, every state of being – through deep sorrow, ecstatic joy, indescribable sensations of bliss, burning anger... – and let myself feel all of it. This process has impacted my relationship with myself, of course, but also with others. The same kindness and compassion I show myself is extended to the people around me because I have learned to accept every aspect of myself. It doesn't mean I tolerate or excuse behaviours or situations. On the contrary, I have become more discerning in my day-to-day life; I rely on my intuition and inner knowing as guides so that I can let people go and step away from situations with clarity and ease because sometimes that is what is needed. Not everyone is meant to stay in my life and, likewise, I am not meant to stay in everyone's lives. There is something very soothing and peaceful in that knowledge.

Meditation has sharpened my senses, developed my intuition, and deepened my connection with the part of me that exists beyond the physical body. And those moments of introspection and reflection continue to teach me invaluable lessons.

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